Lately I’ve been stressed, but not over things that make sense. I’ve been anxious about things that don’t matter, but anxious nonetheless. For a while, I felt like there wasn’t much I could do, so I didn’t do anything. I just sat there and wallowed in my pain and heartache; well, not exactly. I tried to ask God for help and I knew he was there for me, but I was still worried, fearful, anxious, and nauseated. I took some time off school and tried to numb my mind with lots of Dick Van Dyke, but it didn’t really help. It felt like there wasn’t anything I could do, but when I was talking to my mom about how upset I was, she told me that sometimes we just have to give it all to God. That’s it. Just take everything and drop it at God’s feet. If you give something to someone, then it’s not yours anymore, so if I give my fears, worries, and dreams to God, they aren’t mine anymore; they’re his. And that means I don’t have to worry about them anymore. So I’ve given it all to God. It isn’t easy, I still feel stressed sometimes, but I also feel grateful…grateful that God brought me to this place, because if I hadn’t felt this way, I wouldn’t have realized how much I needed him, which, in case you’re wondering, is a lot.
- Pray. You can write with or without the creator of the universe on your side, and although I think it’s pretty clear which option is the better of the two, for those of you who need a little extra help, the answer is with.
- Coffee. Let me start by saying that coffee is wonderful, particularly dark roast. So if you’re feeling a little low on energy and motivation, do yourself a favor and drink some coffee; or, if you’re one of those weirdos who doesn’t like coffee, drink some nice, nasty herbal tea. Whatever helps.
- Listen to Music. Music is an awesome way to get moving with just about any task and writing is no exception, so click shuffle play and get going.
- Set Deadlines. I am definitely one of those people who love lists. And plans, and charts, and over the top organization in general. Basically, I enjoy having deadlines. Even if you aren’t filled with an overwhelming love for deadlines, if you ever plan to write professionally, you’re going to have them, so why not start learning how to manage your time now?
- Write it Out. Writing down everything you have to do can be so helpful. Even if you aren’t going to set time limits for each thing, it is so nice to sit down, think of everything you have to do, and put it on paper. Trust me, those dreaded to-do lists have a purpose.
As writers, we often need to make ourselves feel certain emotions. The thing is, when I’m sitting in my bedroom eating ice cream and trying to type at the same time, the likelihood of me feeling extreme sorrow over a breakup that isn’t mine, is pretty low…until music comes along. If you’re a writer and you don’t use music to help you write, let me just say, I have no clue how you’re doing it. Anway, here is a list of songs that are fabulously full of emotions.
Remembrance/Looking Back: I’ll Remember This by Chris Howland and Matthew Parker and Sailing by Holly Starr.
Sadness Over A Breakup: Not The End of Me by Group 1 Crew, Summer Again by The Afters, Say It Now by The Afters, and Love’s to Blame by For King and Country
Recovery: Braver Still by JJ Heller and Sane by For King and Country
Trust: People Change by For King and Country, Ghost by Matthew Parker, and Let Down Your Guard by JJ Heller
Bravery/Courage To Fight: Run the Race by Holly Starr, Warrior by Hannah Kerr, Long Live by For King and Country, It’s Not Over Yet by For King and Country, and Never Going Back To OK by The Afters
Friendship/Love: Steady by For King and Country, Never Giving Up On You by Matthew Parker, How to Fall by Josh Wilson, and Until You Came Along by JJ Heller
A lot happened in October, and I’m really hoping that even more will happen in November.
For one, I hope that my book will get better. In fact, I hope it will get done. My co-author and I are so stinkin close to being done that I can taste it. I mean we are going to be doing line edits this month and we have a query letter that just might be halfway decent. I really can’t wait to send out the queries and start on the second book, but the time is yet to come, so I’ll wait, even if I don’t like it.
Another thing that I hope to see more of in November is growth in my relationship with God. Recently, I’ve started to realize (again) that if I give God the chance, he will show me things to pray for so I can become more like him, and like everyone else, that is something I desperately need.
Also, in case you are interested, this month Wonder comes out, and, if I’m not mistaken, so does the MICHAEL VEY TV SHOW. If you can’t tell, I’m excited for the first one and like, REALLY excited for the second.
Lastly, I’m hoping to try and read a little more, outside of school that is, even though writing is keeping me extremely busy, and I could use some good book recommendations. I like upper middle grade and clean YA books, preferably realistic fiction, but some fantasy isn’t bad either, so if you know of any book like that, please let me know in the comments.
Thanks for reading!